Hahaha.. I just received an email from.. (wait for it..) MYSELF.. which i written while I was really down and depressed earlier last year on Tuesday, May 4, 2010.. (OMG.. its 2011 already? =O) Labels: new year email futureme.org
funny thing is.. I'm still kinda affected by the same thing that happened back then.. but reading the words i wrote back then.. it gives me hope that good things would be coming my way.. it almost feels like they're words that came from someone wiser and more experienced.. when in fact, its just me at a different point in time.. xP
I guess we actually can help solve our own problems this way.. if viewed from a 3rd person's perspective..
but anyways.. just wanted to say a special thanks to Amanda, who helped me think of this idea.. and helping me out while i was in the dumps earlier last year.. Rachel, who's been helping me recently and listening to my problems.. Jessica, who brings little bits of joy and laughter into my life.. YuLin, for supporting me even though our views on things can be conflicting.. and whoever else reads my blog.. no matter how dusty it's become.. xP
Without further ado, the email which I wrote for my new year.. =)
Happy New Year everybody!!
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Life is short.. as lives that walks this earth come and go.. What mark to they leave behind that they once existed before us?
Its true that people change.. that nothing is eternal.. that one day I might forget the person i used to be in the past..
but at this point.. where they say the decisions you make would define who you become in future.. I still wish for a way to remember the things that makes me.. me..
How this would work.. Life doesn't have a save/load function.. But the best i can think of is sending a letter to the person I'd be, somewhere down life's path.. a letter containing all the hopes and ideals i hope to preserve..
Let anyone who reads this be a witness.. as I would be a witness to anyone who'd wish to use this idea too..
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So to the future Gabriel.. if you're reading this (no.. i don't think I'm dead yet.. =X ), I hope it'd be in happier times..
You may not been blessed with the blood of an angel.. but you have the blood of a Hero running through you.. Let it inspire you.. lead you on undauntedly.. along with anyone else you meet along the way.. It can be your beacon whenever the road seems dark..
The world tells you to pick your battles.. but sometimes we can't choose to not fight a battle.. we can't choose to run, just because its unlikely we'd win.. Sometimes a man, needs to be a man.. and do manly things..
Thus said.. I won't run.. here I stand at another crossroad in life.. unsure of my footing.. struggling against a nameless foe.. Hoping that I can survive through it all..
But such is life.. It is a battle i cannot avoid, and i do so praying that someday you'd see the light i was fighting towards..
Don't be afraid to try new experiences..
Fight hard for what you want.. The world is yours for the taking.. New possibilities are just out there waiting to be discovered by someone with the right heart for it..
Cliche as it may sound.. Out of the many art pieces I may make.. paint or craft with these 2 hands.. nothing even compares to the beauty that is you.. Continue to keep that nice heart and thots of yours.. Continue carrying yourself as a gentlemen.. Continue to walk on happily..
And maybe someday, it'd all make sense.. The reason behind our existence..
Till then.. keep pressing on..
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