Heys... been feeling a little down lately.. but not even sure why.. do pardon me if this post seems a little incoherent =.=
honestly speaking, who wouldn't want to fall in love if given the opportunity?.. who wouldn't love to find someone whom they can be perfectly honest with.. someone whom they know would be thinking of them, as much as they'd be thinking of the other.. someone whom they can share my secrets with, without fear of speculation... Isn't it beautiful to have a significant other?
It was quite a vexing decision to make.. but i guess i had to let go.. I'm sure you came to that conclusion way before me, when you decided to tell me that.. hehe.. shows my poor maturity on this matter doesn't it? =T =S =(
i think i'm starting to understand why sometimes i loathe certain characteristics i see in other people.. one was indecisiveness/insecurity (which i know Care found annoying..) another was insensitivity (which some girls always accuse guys of being..) i suppose its not wrong to say, that perhaps subconsciously i've been mounding myself into an image i've imagined.. isn't it interesting, how sometimes tests can be so accurate about some of these things?
from tickle's engramme test.. "At times when you're feeling unloved, you might blame yourself for not being good enough or hold resentment against others for not seeing how lovable you are. In a move toward greater self-acceptance, try to regard yourself as a whole being, not someone divided into "good" and "bad" parts. Let yourself feel worthy of love, despite your perceived faults. Realize that not all goals in life will be met. Things often work out in ways you didn't anticipate. Sometimes the results are better, sometimes worse, but most often they're just different. Try to embrace all these possibilities, especially as you're looking for love."
Well.. it does make some sense.. and does convince me that perhaps.. it may all just be a matter of wrong place wrong time..
I guess if it's any comfort for the lonely.. you'd only have to find the perfect match but once.. and if that's the case, its worth the wait..
" If it's weird for girls to give guys flowers,
Then maybe that's a reason too,
You're not climbing up my ivory tower,
So I'm comin' down for you,
Is it wrong to write our names in love hearts,
In the dust that's on the car you drive
Droppin' hints can only get you so far,
When you don't know that I'm alive"