Happy National Day y'all!! whee~!! i slept so well today.. all the way from 11pm till abt 1pm xP thats alot right? hee... i feel like a sleepy cat now..
got alot of prep to finish, mainly for chemistry.. but physics as well...
and also for some topics in maths..
and don't forget my GP essays..
gosh thats like everything?!?! i feel dem unprepared now =X
and worst off...
Bloody Quincy intro-ed me to Zion!! now i can play Dota with random ppl on other servers!! xP
lol.. just played last night.. till abt 2am.. my studies are so gonna be affected if i don't do something soon...
or rather.. i just won't be doing as well as i should.. i have started doing work k? pushed my physics MCQ scores from a 16/30 last time to a 24/30 recently ;) whee~!!
yea.. so my counter-solution to that, is to make myself an EPIC MUSIC cd, that would hopefully inspire me to do work while its supposed to be study time =P i'll let ya know how it goes..
Anyways.. i should stop using the com for at least a while with the prelims so close.. don't think i'd be very successful, but i should preferably try.. if i still wish to harbour hopes of getting into NUS..
*sigh* my fears have also been eating me recently.. i don't mind ppl coming to me with their problems.. but when my own problems start showing.. well.. lets just say i don't feel i'm in any right to give solutions.. =X right now, there's still that lingering fear that i'd be forgotten.. in my mind, everyone's studying hard now to get somewhere.. and i'm just wasting about.. i fear ppl would simply just forget me.. that i'd just fade into an oblivion of loneliness.. i loathe such a world.. its simply creepy.. but it seems to be ever nearer with each moment that i spend alone..
i know.. these shouldn't be fears that affect grown ups.. but i'm just a young child with childish fears at times.. and i doubt i'd ever grow out of this one..
just a msg would be nice.. on my tagboard, msn, hp or whatever.. that would be enough for me to get through each day..
if only you knew... the void that is my home..
somehow i feel... I still don't know how to make frens.. =(